The Truth about How I fell in Love

Did you here the news! I'm engaged. I'm in love with Darcy, truly in love. And I cannot help but feel that I will be happy forever. No person can tear us apart, or make us regret our love of each other. I  will be happy with Darcy forever because our marriage was not forced and was not planned. When I met Darcy I knew that there was something different about him. I new in my heart that I was in love.

My feelings have changed.

I told Jane about Darcy's intention to marry me. And like everyone else she was surprised to and said that that was impossible. Later that day, Darcy and I went for a walk, and I hope he marries me soon because I do love him. I feel sorry for the way I treated him in the past. I hope he will forgive me.

The truth about society

A letter came in the mail today from Mr. Collins. As if the Lady Catherine incident couldn't have been enough, Mr. Collins told me that Darcy probably doesn't even love me because Darcy would never marry me. And he wrote that the engagement is probably imminent. After my mother reads me the letter, she adds her own opinions on the idea of the engagement with Darcy---, "who never looked at any woman but to see a blemish, and who probably never looked at you in his life ." I don't believe any word both of them say. I know Darcy cares about me more than they think. 

A Visit From the "Queen"

What an horrible day! Lady Catherine came to my house to speak with me. She made it her duty to insult me in every way shape or form. I cannot believe her. She asked me if it was true that Darcy and I were engaged. And then she told me that if I married him Darcy would loose everything and her family would be looked down upon because of my lower class. She also managed to spit out that people will talk bad about Darcy and I. I sarcastically replied that I wouldn't want that to happen. I really don't know why she even bothers.

Astonishment

My sister and Wickham are finally married. After some disagreement, my family agreed to have Lydia and Wickham come visit for 10 days. I cannot believe how long it has been. I cannot take it. My sister is oblivious to the trouble she has cause and Wickham acts like he did nothing at all. I was, however, fully interested and astonished when my sister mentioned that Darcy was at there wedding. I did not expect that. I was thinking... that if..... Mr. Darcy did propose again.. I would maybe, possibly, think about, saying yes.

Cinderella Gets Her Prince

Yep. It's official. I just found out that Mr. Wickham will agree in marrying Lydia if he can have some money to pay of his debts. My father gladly excepted because the offer was so little. Mr. Wickham must be a huge fool. My mother of course was hysterical when she found out they were getting married. All she could think about was making the wedding look lovely. My father on the other hand, blames himself for raising Lydia to be so foolish. I would have to agree with him. They do not love each other at all. I really wish Lydia wasn't marrying Wickham. Darcy will think my family is all nuts.

That Horrible Rotten Little Man

AHH! Mr. Collins. No words can express my hate towards that short, ugly "man". I have a hard time thinking about how society goes on with a man such as that. Mr. Collins came to visit our house yesterday and managed to insult us in every way possible. He talked about the situation with Lydia and how none of this would happen if she was raised by better people such as my own parents. He also says how he is so glad he didn't marry me because he would not have been going through our situation. Horribe horrible man!

Runaway "Love" Birds

Its been a long couple of days. I just heard out from my uncle that the search for Lydia and Wickham have not been so lucky. Goshhh! How can my sister be such an embarrassment. I hope Mr. Darcy doesn't find my family to be chaotic because we were just starting to be friends. I really hope my father and uncle find Lydia. I hope they break the whole thing off.

The Bad News

When I return to my inn, I find two letters have arrived to me from Jane. Both with terrible news. I was informed that Lydia, my youngest sister, has run off with the dreadful Mr. Wickham. I am horrified for my sister!! I don't know how she can be so stupid! And I blame myself for letting this happen. I know all Mr. Wickham wants is money, he is not at all interested in my poor sister. How can she be so naive. The second letter explained how there is no word from the couple and that my father is going to London to find them. How awful!! I really need to relax before I faint...

A blush from the disagreeable woman

The day after Miss Darcy and Mr. Darcy's visit with me, I visited Pemberley in the morning to have breakfast. All went really well, except for the awful Miss Bingley. After another attempt to insult me, she comments on how Darcy thought I was once "rather pretty." I was surprised and flattered when Darcy shot back at her that he now thinks I'm one of the handsomest woman of his acquaintance. I would also have say, as a dear friend, that Darcy is rather handsome as well.

The truth about the Darcy's

I was visited by Georgiana and Darcy today and let me tell you.. those two are defiantly related. Georgiana was very shy, much like Darcy was when I first met him. But overall, I really do enjoy her. She reminds me of my younger sisters.. except less wild. After their brief visit, they invited me to dine with them in Pemberley. I said I would love to come.

Unexpected...

Today I went to Pemberley with my aunt and uncle. I found Mr. Darcy's estate to be truly beautiful. I learned about his past and how he was when he was a little boy. Apparently, he was "the sweetest, most generous-hearted boy in the world."
I found it to be very unexpected when I saw Mr. Darcy himself, as I was informed he was not going to be there. We had a surprisingly normal conversation and he invited me to meet his sister, Georgiana. I will have to say, I am excited to meet her!

Summer Time

Its finally July, I can feel the heat soak up my dry pores. I decided to get away and accompany the Gardiners on a tour of Derbyshire countryside. It was quite beautiful. The town and architecture is truly fabulous. Our travels take us very close to Pemberley where Darcy lives. Luckily hearing that Darcy's not in the neighborhood, I agreed to tour the estate. I do not want to see him. Can you say awkward?!?

Teenage Sisters

After my short stay with the Gardiner's London House, Jane and I return home. I feel very close to Aunt Gardiner. I think of her as a better mother or the mother I've never had. She seems to agree with me on Wickham and even dislikes Darcy like I do. When we reach home Jane and I are greeted by our rambunctious sisters. Kitty and Lydia talk all about the soldiers and the excited coach ride they took. Lydia informs me that Mr.Wickham has broken off things with Miss King. hmmmmmmm

SOooooo LOOoong

Upon my departure, Mr. Collins made sure to inform me that he and Charlotte seem to be made for each other. Of course I had to chuckle to myself because this is clearly untrue. Even Charlotte admits it that she didn't marry Collins for happiness. When I said goodbye I hugged my dear friend and felt worried for her. I almost cried leaving her unhappy with Mr. Collins. But that's just how society is, unfortunately. Mr. Collins wished me the same happiness in marriage that he enjoys, which was actually a nice thing to say.

The days drag on.

I really, REALLY needed to leave the Collin's house. Don't get me wrong... I love Charlotte. It's just that my time there had been way too long and I needed to return home to the Longbourn estate. Lady Catherine insisted that I stay ANOTHER two weeks. That lady cannot boss me around. I will not have it.

Opinions Changing

I am beginning to believe that mr. Darcy isn't as bad as I thought. I kinda like him. but we are not getting married anytime soon. I have come to the conclusion that he was speaking the truth about Mr. Wickham. I am seeing Mr. Darcy for who he truly is, and he has less pride than I thought.

It's Complicated

My sister Jane and I have been discussing the topics of Mr. Wickham. I told her the truth about him and what Mr. Darcy had told me. We both agreed not to address him publicly about it. When I saw Mr. Wickham for the last time because his regiment was leaving, we both discussed Mr. Darcy. It seems this is always a constant topic of mine. I was glad that I did not mention him lying to me. Although deep down I wish I had. Kitty was overly emotional seeing the soldiers departing. I told her to not get her panties in a bundle and laughed.

Men are Idiots

I have just been informed by Mr. Collins that him and Charlotte are meant for each other... but clearly this is not the case. I know that Charlotte could never be REALLY happy with a man such as Mr. Collins. I know that Charlotte doesn't care about true love, but I really wish she had found someone better than Mr. Collins.. I mean of all people. Ughhh. I truly believe that a woman must marry a man with whom she truly loves. A man who is her best friend and can make her happy. And a person like Mr. Collins would defiantly not make a woman happy.

Beauty Within

Hello! My name is Elizabeth Bennet. That's me in the picture above. Yes, I really am that dirty. My mother thinks I am less handsome than my sister Jane. And Caroline Bingley thinks poorly of me because of my appearance. On the contrary, I find that true beauty comes within and that looks aren't everything. It seems that all women care about these days is their outside beauty, but what truly matters is their intelligence. A women who can think for themselves and have their own opinions is better off living. I do not think I could go on living without the freedom of sharing my opinions, fore, there is many people out there who need disagreeing.